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LJIdol: Week 3 [Mar. 28th, 2014|03:45 pm]
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The door slams, and she shrinks into an even tighter ball on the floor of her walk-in-closet. It's only a matter of time before he finds her, but, for now, she can allow the illusion of safety to surround her.

"Bethany!" he bellows. "Where the hell are you? I told you to be here when I got home. You'd better get your ass down here now. You won't like what happens if you don't."

She chokes back a fit of hysterical laughter. Five years ago, she would have believed him. She would have hurried down the stairs, ready and willing to do whatever she could to stave off his anger. Now though, she knows that to be an effort in futility. He'll do whatever he wants, regardless of her actions. In truth, what she does, says, or thinks matters little in the grand scheme of things. Her time as his wife has taught her that much.

She can hear him moving around the house, opening doors and slamming them shut. With every slam of the door, his anger grows. She hates the thought of what he'll do when he actually finds her. For the briefest of moments, she considers standing up and walking into the light of their bedroom, but fear immobilizes her. For now, she's safe, and she'll take every second of safety she can get.

He's coming up the stairs now. Closer and closer he comes. Her heart begins to pound, and her breathing grows shallow. He's near the bedroom door now. He'll be upon her in a matter of seconds.

"Bethany!" his voice is sharp. "Don't make me hunt you down. You know it will only make things worse for you. Honestly, Babe, I wouldn't have to do these things if you'd just listen to me. I hate having to punish you. I'm sure you know that, but you don't give me any choice."

By the time he's done speaking, he's on the other side of the closet door. He throws it open, and reaches in, dragging her out by her long, black hair. She knows better than to struggle. She goes limp, allowing herself to become nothing but dead weight, but Mark is strong. He drags her to the middle of the bedroom floor. He lets go of her hair, and her head slams into the floor.

"Bitch!" he hisses, leaning down so his face is only inches from hers. "You defy me all the time. You never learn, no matter how hard I try to teach you what's right."

He begins to hit her in earnest then, his fists landing with great force on her face, her arms, her stomach. She just lies there, as still as she can manage. Hopefully, he'll get bored soon.

He starts to kick her then. Her vision is growing blurry. The grunting sounds he's making grow more and more distant. Her last thought, before the darkness claims her, is that a man's home is his castle. Things would have been so much better for her, if only her life could have been lived  in another castle.

He's finally done with her. He looks down at her, his disgust plain to see. He gives her one last kick before turning away, leaving her bleeding on the floor. Maybe after this, she'll finally learn to be the wife he's always wanted. If not, he has no problem continuing to teach her.


This has been my entry for week 3 of
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[User Picture]From: basric
2014-03-28 08:03 pm (UTC)
A powerful piece of writing. Terrifying.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-29 03:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I was aiming for the terror.
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[User Picture]From: i_love_freddie
2014-03-28 08:27 pm (UTC)
Wow, very dark and terrifying!
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-29 03:25 pm (UTC)
Sometimes, I think I write too much that is dark. I guess it's because I like to look at actual things that happen in the world.

Thanks for reading.
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[User Picture]From: similiesslip
2014-03-29 02:32 am (UTC)
They do tend to feel what they do is justified.

Very sad and well-written.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-29 03:26 pm (UTC)
Yes. Abusers always have some way of justifying what they do, whether it's to themselves or to those they abuse.
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[User Picture]From: labelleizzy
2014-03-29 03:19 am (UTC)
Powerful... I wish there were some hope of escape though.

Would you like typo-hunting service? I have noticed two.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-29 03:29 pm (UTC)
Typo-hunting would be greatly appreciated. I spellchecked and proofread. Still, things can sometimes get by me.

There are so many people who are victims of domestic violence. I wish they could all find a way to escape.
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[User Picture]From: eternal_ot
2014-03-29 12:40 pm (UTC)
Brutal and ruthless!!...hope there is a revenge plot lurking somewhere...
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-29 03:39 pm (UTC)
Unfortunately, Mark is both of those things. An apt description of such a horrid man.
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From: catwomon
2014-03-29 03:40 pm (UTC)
Wow! I could feel her fear! I know that folks would like an escape plot or some hope. I would too, but as someone who has worked and lived in DV situations, the awful truth is that sometimes there is none.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-30 02:16 am (UTC)
Escape would be an awesome thing, but, as you said, there are times when it just isn't possible.
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[User Picture]From: penpusher
2014-03-29 05:28 pm (UTC)
That was rough and real and stomach turning.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-30 02:17 am (UTC)
Thank you, I think. (smile)
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[User Picture]From: i_will_not_say
2014-03-29 08:10 pm (UTC)
This was well written, terrifying and sad.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-30 02:18 am (UTC)
Thank you. Domestic violence is such a sad thing.
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[User Picture]From: alycewilson
2014-03-29 08:38 pm (UTC)
This piece is made sadder only by the realization there are real-life versions of it playing out all around the world.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-30 02:20 am (UTC)
I wish this wasn't the case. I wish people could find better ways of dealing with their anger.

Thank you for reading.
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[User Picture]From: tatdatcm
2014-03-29 09:24 pm (UTC)
This makes my heart sink and my stomach blanch. It's so heartbreaking that the thought of a way out doesn't even enter her mind.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-30 02:21 am (UTC)
It is incredibly heartbreaking. Domestic violence is always one of those things that there doesn't seem to be a good solution for. So sad.

Thank you for taking the time to read and comment.
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[User Picture]From: kandigurl
2014-03-29 11:20 pm (UTC)
This feels real, as if you've been there. That sort of abuse can be difficult to get away from.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-30 02:26 am (UTC)
Luckily, I have not been there. I know those who have though. You're right. It can be incredibly difficult to get away from
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[User Picture]From: baxaphobia
2014-03-30 01:27 am (UTC)
Chilling. Way too real for words.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-30 02:27 am (UTC)
It's a very real problem, as you know.

Thanks so much for reading.
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From: uncawes
2014-03-30 02:23 am (UTC)
Ouch!
Your stories are awesome, this one too.
But all too scary and real.
I spent 10 years teaching people, mostly women and kids, how to defend themselves against the Marks of this world.
It still sickens me when I see stuff like this in real life - and I hope this wasn't real for you.
I'd like five minutes alone with Mark. I could "teach" him how to be the husband he should be.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-03-30 02:30 am (UTC)
I wish there were more people like you in this world, people to teach those who need it to defend themselves. It's awesome that you gave of yourself in that way.

Domestic violence has never been my reality. I know people who have lived with it, and I've talked with women in DV shelters. It's a horrible situation, one I wish we could solve, or, at least, help.
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[User Picture]From: halfshellvenus
2014-03-31 06:24 am (UTC)
Scary, all the more for the amount of truth in it. This is the trap too many people find themselves in, where nothing they do will ever be "right" enough to stave off the abuser's anger.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-04-02 12:02 am (UTC)
Unfortunately, there is just some anger that cannot be escaped. My heart aches for those who live with it, and try hard to get away.
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[User Picture]From: roina_arwen
2014-03-31 07:09 pm (UTC)
What makes me sad is that she knows what's coming and yet continues to stay with him and put up with it.
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From: solstice_singer
2014-04-02 12:03 am (UTC)
She knows no other life. After five years of abuse, who knows what he has scared her into believing?
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